Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Falling Away

Once again I'm letting go....and so much is falling away.
Here's the deal: Check this out and see if it's the same for you. 
I see that I am nothing I've ever thought myself to be. And...there's nowhere to "camp out."

No image, stance, or posturing will do. "Okay...I know I'm not that, so now I'll be this! Well, it's been dawning on me lately that the only this I can be is no image at all. No new image, stance or posturing. 

End of story.
What I am cannot and will not be contained in thought or image. 

And then there's that stuff...you know...the stuff where I look back and realize "oh my God....I can't believe I was that stupid...that shortsighted, that blind!" And I know I can't hide behind "well there's really nobody here anyway so..." Yeah, well that may be true from one vantage point, but my heart knows something deeper. There are some apologies to be made. And then...

It's time to move on. 
No more staying in regret, insecurity and limitation. 

Tell you what... Let's make a deal: 
I'll let go of the you you used to be. (This is the greatest gift I think we can give each other.) And if you can, please do the same for me.

(Thank you. And by the way...guess what...if you can't let go of your idea of who I used to be.....I'm movin' on anyway). 

And this realization is being shown in the physical form as well. This body is changing daily.

Each contraction of muscle, fiber, and vertebrae is proving to be another contraction of mind to be seen, felt, and released. And with each opening there is the realization: My God....I really don't know who I am! And yet the moment I realize this, I know more than ever what I am...and it's beyond thought. 

That's enough. 

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Summer Tour Dates 2012

Greetings and love to all...
Below you will find a list of concerts and workshops I will be offering this summer during my time in Germany. 
Looking forward to seeing you all...

All One....Steven

München (Munich)
Rainbow Spirit Festival
Concert: Mon May 28th 15:30 - 17:00 €5
Schedule @ Rainbow Spirit
Biography @ Rainbow Spirit

Schoenberg Retreat House
Concert: Sat June 2nd 20:00 €15
Workshop: Sun June 3rd 20:00 €90
Concert & Workshop Details

Concert: Wed June 7th 20:00 - 21:30 €10 - €15
Concert Details
Workshop: Fri June 9th 11:00 - 17:00 €75 - €50
Workshop Details

Köln (Cologne)
Tor28 (in the Cedar Room)
Concert: Sun June 10th 19:00 - 22:30
Tor28 Schedule

Concert In The Big Tent: Sun June 17th 18:30 - 20:00
YogaFestival Schedule

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Winter Tour 2012

Winter Tour 2012

This last tour was so amazing. It's hard to know where to begin. 

Such a deep relaxation occurred as I let go of being the "doer," allowing everything to simply be as it was.

The concerts and workshops continued to confirm that everything and everyone is in their proper place. How can it be that everything actually unfolds by itself? 

There were miracles happening daily. Often, just before going to sleep at night (wonderfully exhausted) I would reflect upon the fullness of the day. "That couldn't have been this morning" I would think. And yet it was! There were simply too many amazing sychronicities (miracles) to ignore.  

And I connected with so many beautiful souls. Thank you to everyone who helped, participated in workshops, made food for the recording sessions, arranged event venues, and drove me safely to the next event (Ralph)...no amount of thanks would ever be enough....still.....Thank you. 

Even when challenges arose, as they did a few times with  sound systems etc. (often the bane of touring musicians) it became clear that as I relaxed and allowed things to be as they were, by concert time, everything worked itself out. 

My experience in the studio was like a dream come true. My new producer, Ulli, has worked with some of the greats, including Michael Jackson, the Rolling Stones, and Neil Young.  He continued to invite me to enjoy myself in front of the microphones (of which there were at least 8 recording just my guitar). I've never heard my old Washburn sounding so good. It was like an orchestra all by itself. (We'll have some photos for you soon.)

And....Ulli wonderfully reminded me again and again to "play". Not simply to play the guitar, but to play like a child plays; to relax and enjoy this process of self discovery that will be this new CD. It didn't matter so much what I had imagined myself to be in the past.  What am I now? What wants to be expressed now?  What does my true voice really sound like? Again I saw that the way to stay awake is not to have all of the answers, but to continually be willing to live all of the questions. 

Thank God for Ulli's divine invitation. I recorded slide guitar, shaker, and this one's amazing....drums! 

I had been telling Ulli that I could hear certain drum parts to my songs. Sometimes I would play "air drums" in the control room as we listened to different "takes" to simulate what I was hearing in my head. The next thing I know, Christian (one of the greatest recording engineers I've ever met) and my dear friend Ralph are moving  a full drum set into the studio. Even though I've rarely played a full kit, (probably a total of a few hours in my lifttime) it all sounded surprisingly good. I had a blast!

I returned home to California a few days later to find a full drum set for sale right across the street. Yes....It's now sitting in my music room. 

I've been enjoying my new instrument so much (often playing for hours a day) and hope to record some great drum parts when I return to Germany this summer.  

This was a huge reminder to never limit myself.....ever! 

And...who would have guessed that dance would become a major part of my life? 

I've been sharing an experience I call non-volitional movement with people. This occurs in both private sessions and in workshops. It's proving to be the most powerful transformational tool I could have ever imagined. (You can read more about this in my blog entry "Only The Dance. Healing Movements.")

Please remember friends, it's never too late to start something new. I love the fact that I no longer think of myself simply as a singer/songwriter, but now also as a drummer and dancer! I hope this little story inspires  you to stretch beyond your horizons and to try something completely new. 

And.... remember.... 

Don't focus on what you don't want. Focus on what you do want. 

And what do I want? 

I want to PLAY....in so many ways.  

What gets your cells tingling? 

What thrills you when you think about it?  

All Love, 


Sunday, January 15, 2012

Easy to forget

Easy to forget...
How still stillness is...
How silent silence is....
How empty emptiness is...

I heard a physicist say the other day....
"You've probably heard that everything we see 
is 99.9 % empty space. But this is not quite correct.

We are actually...
99.9999999999999% empty space."
(that's 13 nines after the decimal point.)

Awake early this morning
Cup of coffee in my hand
A seagull cries....




Friday, December 30, 2011

Don't worry about saving these songs ...

Don't worry about saving these songs!
And if one of our instruments breaks,
it doesn't matter.

For we have fallen into the place
where everything is music . . . 

~ Rumi 

It's been a dream of mine since I can remember....
I would be on stage one day...feeling and being a spontaneous instrument of Spirit. (You can insert Love, God, Truth etc.). Spontaneous transparency, singing, moving, playing as the "all in me". I seem to have also made this agreement long ago. It goes something like this...

I'll take birth into this human form, take on this identity, get completely lost, make an outrageous number of mistakes, try every possible way out of illusion and delusion. I'll basically fool myself in so many many ways, and for so long, that I'll finally (blessedly) tire myself out!

Here's the tricky part: Awakening is more important to me than my success as a singer-songwriter. I know that it's not enough to simply sing about Truth, Oneness, and Love. I have to BE this.

It's all a setup. I basically have to die in order to live this truth. Every illusion has to be burned up and seen through so that I can live and be the truth that I am.

So....how much to do? How much to let go? Of course there's no simple answer.
There's today, there's now.... there's life and the living of it. There are many songs, in various stages of completion, nibbling at my heart, asking to be sung.

I can see the gifts of Spirit. If I accomplish too much by doing, then ego becomes stronger. If on the other hand I get lost in "well it's all perfect so there's nothing to do" well, we know this isn't right either.

Seeing that no thought is real, it gets really interesting. Scary sometimes. 

Who's running the show?

Again, no simple answers here.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Only the Dance - Healing Movements

It's amazing....

It started years ago. Probably in grade school. I sensed this movement that just happened all by itself. I was there, and I was part of the movement, but it wasn't me doing it. It could be something as simple as turning around at exactly the right moment to receive a piece of paper. 

Later, in my twenties, I remember dancing with a partner to a Stevie Wonder song. We were twirling, moving so gracefully, often back to back, yet without any cognition or intention, meeting each other time and time again, fingertip to fingertip with a grace that was well....divine. It wasn't about being a great dancer. Once again....it just happened. 

Now I know this to be Spirit itself. 

The strange part is knowing that you are part of it, but you are not directing it. You allow it, even work with it. But you do not control it. 

And here's the best part:

All you have to do is let yourself move in exactly the way that feels true and right for you. And the more you "do" this, the more you realize you are perfectly synchronized with the partner or partners you are dancing with. 

It gets even better. The more you do this, the more you realize that you are simultaneously healing each other.

It is the most powerful Yoga, because with each and every movement your partner is reflecting back to you something so vital, something so tender, something so beautiful, that all you can do is be in wonder at the beauty of it.

Sometimes even though the pace of the music is fast, there is a slowing down to complete stillness.

Then, if the presence is strong enough, you meet your partner's eyes....and there it is. The recognition that though there appears to be two dancers (or more)  there is really only the dance.

Call it divine flow, divine order, or synchronicity. It doesn't matter. 

But you know it inside. 

You have touched the divine. You have found that exquisite balance between form and formlessness. Between doer and no doer. And the mind is stunned into silence at the beauty and power of this meeting. 

Right here, on this earth....in this body....

And guess what? It doesn't end when you leave the dance floor. 

In fact...

It's just beginning.... 

All Love, 


Monday, November 7, 2011

Surrendering to the mystery... there is so much more space.

I was doing the dishes the other day when the urge suddenly came over me to move the old wicker rocking-chair from the backyard to the front of the house.

I dried my hands, grabbed the rocker and moments later was placing the chair on the front porch. Somewhere floating softly inside my head was the thought; "does this really have to happen right now?" "Why"? "Don't know".....

I'm learning to trust these movements....these urges arising out of nowhere.

Standing a few feet away in the middle of the street was a middle aged woman I'd never seen before. I remember her golden hair shimmering like a halo in the morning sun.

Lightly I asked, "so what do you think" pointing toward the chair. We both stood silently for a moment, chins in hands pondering the new look. "I like it" she said. "It makes the whole house look more welcoming."

From this simple conversation, other more personal subjects emerged. It turns out my new friend has MS (Multiple Sclerosis) and has some difficulty walking and using her hands. I put my arm out, she sweetly laid her hand in mine, and silently we began walking back toward her home. We sat for a while in her old weathered beach chairs looking out at the sun over the Pacific.

Such sweetness this is. Just meeting another person, a total stranger one moment, and the next we're walking arm in arm?

Thank you God, spirit, Shiva, for this Grace....this heart opening. Living more from the unknown. More from love than from fear.

Within fifteen minutes, my world is suddenly wider, more beautiful. I now have a new friend and.... beach front property!

My housemates and I have been invited to come and enjoy the beautiful landscaped grounds and ocean views anytime.

My new friend simply said with a look of bemused wonder "what...do you think we could ever own this view?"

Ahhhh.....Maha Dev, Maha Dev

Love to All,

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